“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me”. Okay, so am I the only one who thinks that this is the biggest lie ever. No, like seriously! I don’t know about you, but this is theeeee biggest lie I told myself this year. Through this journey of self reflection, what I realized is that certain situations and certain things people said to me did hurt me more than I let myself believe. Those very words had a huge impact in my life, and those very words negatively affected my decisions and self esteem, more than I realized. As a result my spiritual life was adversely impacted. I love God, and I believe in Him, but I just couldn’t understand why for the past year our relationship was not as strong as I pushed for it to be. I was the one in worship services and couldn’t cry out. I was the one leading praise and worship but at times felt like I was far from His grace.
God has been waiting for me to be open, transparent and vulnerable with Him…
I recently had different conversations with a few friends (check your circle) and realized that although I’m open and transparent with other people and try to counsel them through their situations, God has been waiting for me to be open, transparent and vulnerable with Him. It’s so easy to give advice, but so hard to take your own advice. I pinned the hurt and disappointment I felt from people onto God and consequently kept my heart from Him. Even with all of this, God still has His hand on me. He still sees me. He’s still waiting for me to bear it all to Him.
God has been showing me more and more where He wants to take me, if I just let go and truly give Him my hurt and disappointments. As this year comes to an end, I just want to encourage everyone to give their all to Christ.. the good, bad and the ugly… allow Him to truly transform you and change your heart. He loves us and has so much in store for us. Just let go and let God! Trust Him. He cares for you and wants to carry your burdens!
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30 NIV